Thursday, May 30, 2013

A little taste of my writing endeavors...

Chapter 1.
The tick tock of the clock and the crackling of the fading embers of the fire, made for perfect conversation, whispering and chortling at the darkness of the night. Mary had always been an odd sort of girl. Her eyes of golden hazel had a peculiar gleam about them as she scrutinized the world with a quizzical eye, fascinated by the inner and outer workings of its mysterious ways. Laughter often danced on the tip of her tongue, and her daredevil ways never failed to get her into trouble.
The old stone castle-like building entranced little Mary, who loved to prowl about its cavernous halls. Treading softly upon the stone floor she stepped, and stepped, and stepped, with the caution of a tight-rope walker suspended above the grand canyon. Little Mary realised that her echoing foot steps multiplied into twos, to sixes, to eights, and so forth, until the halls were ringing with applause for her leather slippers. She liked to think that she was being followed by little elves with clattering feet, and the prospect amused her so much that she grinned and began to skip while basking in her fantasy world of day dreams.
The grand hall was a vast room. The ceiling rose upwards as it arched towards the heavens. At night, it reminded Mary of a starless sky, so big yet so empty.
The hall was so full of space, and empty of things, that the sight of it would always strike Mary as yet another odd corner of the universe. However, there was one big, massive, glorious fire place at the end of the hall. This was Mary’s favorite place.

There was not another soul awake that night and Mary knew because there was not a soul in the castle who would want to be awake that night. She had always wondered at the bewildering fear that possessed all who dwelt in the castle. Such horrors they dreamt and spoke of! Mary couldn't help but laugh as she thought of such preposterous ideas. Little chuckles rang throughout the hall. Progressively Mary realized that the giggles were getting louder and louder until the crescendo peeked as vibrations shook the hall. A deep, hearty, laugh rang from the fire place. The red coals which were slowly dying, came alive and as flames licked the nonexistent stars in Mary’s gaping little world.
“Well, well, well. Mary come to play again.” Said the deep smiling voice.
The night was alive, and it summoned her forth. Overcome with excitement, she reached out her arms to the welcoming flames and with warmth and light they gave her a hug. ... And there, was Mary not.

Tuesday, May 28, 2013

Another Poem about a little Anna

The Sky is crying and little Anna is sitting all alone in the corner of her bedroom
The window only shows a world outside of grey
And Anna thinks to herself What a perfect day to cry?
But the tears are stuck in her throat and all dried up
because Anna hasn't taken a single sip from her cup
Due to the fact that its been a few days since her throat turned to clay
Poor little Anna is to numb to say
I am sad...
I wish i could fly...
But there she dangles until she'll die
Because instead of soaring she just floats away
Because Poor little Anna has turned to clay

Monday, February 25, 2013

Worthwhile...

That moment when you wish to hell and back that you could fall backwards into the sky
Backwards into the night
Backwards into the things of the past that made you smile, 
And weep, and yet sing with WORTH.
That moment when you wish for the laughter and rage and lovely little pieces 
Whether broken or whole that turned you into a being of many colors...
Instead of staring into a void
A void of unanswerable questions and a greynness that creeps into your veins and makes the blue birds In the sky cry because they cannot sing 
And they cannot see the smiles on your faces anymore...
The void you wish to fall out of but are stuck in
The thresh-hold of hue's not colors
The world of ambiguity and insecurity
And then you wish for that falling backwards into love in to health into life
But those walls have been broken down
And you're not falling now

Sunday, February 17, 2013

Dust

What happens when the world seems to be more full of death then of life?
And the life that we know
We wish was a dead one?
What happens when we have no choice
But to remember that our brokeness is unbearable
And that hope is a mystery
But destruction is impossible
Cause our stars are unbreakable
And we'll never not know it
Because that is the stuff
From and to we are made
That stuff we call dust
Sure as hell will not fade

Even if we beg and we plead
For the tiny specks of breath to leave our lungs
They will not leave
Because none can take away the soul of a me
Or a you
Or an i
Or a him
Or a her
Because that is what we might be made of

A smile
A laugh
A love
A cry
A person made of some stuff
Some stuff that we call dust
That no matter how broken
Is always light enough to fly

So what happens when life is just full of too much
Well, we'll break and we'll fall
But we both know that broken
Is what we won't touch

~Me

Tuesday, February 12, 2013

Just a reminder...


IDEAS, their worth and their struggle. The storms and the blessings of free thinking...


Dear Reader,
Do you ever have those reoccurring moments where you're on the brink of having a brilliant idea that could set everything on fire, but then its blown out like a candle flame in a rainstorm (except you're idea is the flame and the rain is the life around you?) So, at that point you forget all about what you were going to think about, and you are just really really mad (not to mention wet.) Well, i have those moments all the time. 
Theres an issue, friends, that I've been thinking about a lot lately. Freedom. Now, i promise you that I'm not going to start ranting about politics because honestly i think they are pretty pointless. By freedom, i mean freedom to speak, express, think and be understood. I can tell you that a whole lot of us feel pretty misunderstood these days. There's a lot of tainted glasses that people see through to other people. We judge, we love, we hate, we ignore. So what? Why should we care about other people? Why should we care about what they think, and their hopes and dreams?
Because we all do.
On the inside we care a lot about other people, and the way they look at us. 
I have the right to speak, and i am telling you that I'm just a person. One person. One liiiittle, tiny, teensy weensy voice saying, "hey, i have dreams, hopes, and a loooot of nightmares. But i am bone tired of being so darn scared all the time."
FEAR.
This governs a whole lot of what we do, and even what we think every day. And this is what i am getting at- I find my mind turning in circles, around and around, and it never gets to any of those big ideas at the end of the big rain storm, because i am afraid. Scared. Of a lot of things. Because i know what people will say, "you're just a teenager, you're supposed to feel this way. Hormones! Emotions! Circumstance! REALITY! Woohoo!"
... these words worth to me is like squirrel poop. Have you ever cared if you stepped in, or even seen squirrel poop?  I thought not. If i hadn't mentioned it i bet you never would have even thought that squirrel poop existed.WHY am i afraid of squirrel poop?
So, dear friends, adults and all, listen a moment to the crazy ideas of people no matter the shape, size or appearance of the hmpothesyser. You might even find, the most fearless, intelligent, faithful, wise, humorous, and gentle mind, is that of a two year old.
I will be honest. My idea's are precious to me. They entertain me and make me happy especially when they aren't suffocated by my own reality, and dubiousness.
May i conclude, dear reader, that i care about you. I care about your thoughts, and ideas, because i know they lead to a better tomorrow. I'd like to encourage you to express them. Free yourself.
Freedom of thought... its a very pretty concept...

Well i hope I've given you some food for thought to lead you to some sort of exciting discovery.
This truly is the beauty of words, and i thank God for them every day.

With gratitude and love

Cassia